Dec 31, 2012

Assalamualaikum 2013. Please Be Nice And Don't Bite

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Assalamualaikum. In just a couple of hour we will be welcoming the new year and so long 2012. Just like that. Puff! Be gone. In short, 2012 has taught me a lot of things. Seriously. From tears to laughter, joy and pain, ups and downs in my everyday life, and sometimes miracles did their part too, in one way and another. I find it amusing and confusing at the same time. But thank to Allah, He never let me astray. Still in the same path and direction, searching for the real me.

Oh there are so many things happened in 2012. There are handful recollections of memories and good things to be remembered. To be yearned at cherished for a lifetime. Those new faces I got to know, shining my life to its ultimate bright. Oh Allah, I shouldn't asked for more. There are few who walked into my life for purpose. Be it to hurt or to care, they are all the same. To teach me some important value in my life, which seriously I'm going to treasure it for the rest of my life. Thank you people.

For this 2013, I will hope for less and work for more. I want to be a good wife, a good mom, a good daughter, a good teacher and of course a good servant of Allah. InsyaALLAH. Allah, please guide me. Don't let me go astray. Keep me safe and sane. ><,

Happy new year to all.  Be a good person, and Allah will be good to you in return.

Now I am ready. Okay 2013. Bring it on!

Dec 29, 2012


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29th December 2012. 

I have been celebrating it for 12 years already. ><, 12 years and counting.

For him.
Since he loathe cake, I made him this instead

Happy birthday my wonderful man. I wanna grow old with you.

And I love you, so much!


Dec 22, 2012

There Will Always Be Someone Like That

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There will always be someone who magically catches your attention. Someone who would make you think about them all the time if it’s not everytime. Someone who tragically causes your heart to flip and bend and then get all straight again everytime you see his/her face. Someone who will make you want to care about, be there everytime she/he wants you to. There will always be someone like that. 

 I saw him for the first time and I grew all fond towards him. Regardless of my warmth approaches and extra tenderness, he was being all cynical and bitter towards me. He kind of served me with endless rejection and seclusion. He was never tried to make any effort to reconcile so I just watched him from a distance, knowing that he is doing all fine and collected. 

He put a barrier within our line. He keeps his kindness away so it will never be touched by anyone without his approval. And he will never tire of acting that way. He kind of enjoying it as time passes. Happy to see people come and go with massive demolition of hope and emotion. And again, he will be a all alone, living in a world only he can rule. 

It’s okay for him to hurt me. It feels good. It’s true. It feels good to know how it feels like to be hurt by someone whom you cared too much. 

As if you are bleeding, and no one is there, to mend it. 

Oh this is not love. This is beyond that.

Nov 18, 2012

I Don't Understand You .

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Assalamualaikum .

It comes to my understanding that there are things in our live that need not to be understood , but to be accepted . And although it might sound a little bit ridiculous but yes , there are people who just don't know how to appreciate other kindness without being cynical and all question .

It's just my nature . To care for people , to understand them , to choose to love them instead of ignoring them and let them sink in their insanity . And sometimes , I chose one or two to get my extra attention along the way . With the sole intention that somehow I can leave mark in their lives , hopefully a positive one . And this is not easy I must say . One has to consume the act of randomness cause by emotional changes of people as the major living creatures on Earth . A homo sapien full of contradict behavior and beliefs and it's funny though how could a single thought of people upon your acts , words or behaviors affects your life so deeply , you just wanted to end it once and for all .

People's feeling is complicated .

Sometime you think you understand them where the truth is you don't know a shit about them . At all .

Oh Allah , whatever it is . I believe you choose the best for me . Amin!

Nov 11, 2012

Pillow Talk

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Assalamualaikum , We had a great chat just now . At 1 in the morning . We were all so serious and stressed up . Not because we were fighting over stupid things like always , but it was more to a pour out session . I was actually pouring my burden to you . And you , like what you always did everytime I need you , you lend me your shoulders , your ears , your anticipation , your patience , and your two cents of thought . I love to hear your advise , your words , your cynical remarks over my stupidity , your cunning words and acts . And above all , I just love to sit and be there with you . I don't need any other excuses to be with you . I just love the feeling to be wanted and needed by you . And most of the times we were just killing time by talking nonsense and picking on each other .

You always taught me new things . And I am all noob and naive around you . You are good with words . You just know the perfect timing when to use it as your lethal ammo . As much as I hate it when you do that , I am pretty much adore it at times . You always fascinate me , although you always say that you are a walking boredom . Nope . Not for me . You are one of the most fascinating home-sapien I have ever met in my life .

I love this pillow talk session we have . It's like a ritual before we both hit the sack .

I love it , you know .

So let's do it more frequent . Until we run out of time .

><, Thank you , HB !

Nov 10, 2012

The Last Day Of School . Pure Bliss Of Heaven !

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Assalamualaikum . Forgive my long disappearance . Well , I don't know if my blog has any reader except for myself . So , I guess an occasional disappearance would be forgiven then . Never mind . Ah yesterday was my last day of school . I am totally hysteric . This means , endless hour of sleeping , online , Facebook-ing , Twitter-ing , SMS -ing with loved ones , gossiping with old school mates , loitering and basically doing nothing without having to fear of wasting time and such .

Oh and I have a mission to be accomplished though . A mission of what heard to be impossible . Loosing weight . Well , we will see . I am craving for chocolate these days . And sweets . And crackers . And oh so many things to mention and yeah , too lazy to get off my ass from bed to shake off some fat . I love them as mush as they do love me . We are hard to separate . Bahaha !

Works are all done . Tremendously finished I must say . Phew . And 2012 school session ends with quite a show , though . A happy one . I spill out some , later .

This is my outfit for the last day of school .

I will update more later . Till then , bubye !

Oct 12, 2012

Letting You Go

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I guess , sooner or later , the moment will come .

Feb 12, 2012

Please, Walk Away From My Life

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I know that best friend does not exists. There will be only friends and not more than that.

Yours sincerely,


I always hope I can say this straight to your face. I had enough of you. For all this while you never care about my feelings. You were never there when I needed you the most. Never.

Then why should I care for you now?

Jan 1, 2012


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Pretty women are everywhere. The only thing that will make you out stands them is a pretty soul. Beauty is only skin deep. ^____^ Happy 2012 everyone. Starts your new year resolutions with blessing from Allah The Almighty.