Dec 31, 2012

Assalamualaikum 2013. Please Be Nice And Don't Bite

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Assalamualaikum. In just a couple of hour we will be welcoming the new year and so long 2012. Just like that. Puff! Be gone. In short, 2012 has taught me a lot of things. Seriously. From tears to laughter, joy and pain, ups and downs in my everyday life, and sometimes miracles did their part too, in one way and another. I find it amusing and confusing at the same time. But thank to Allah, He never let me astray. Still in the same path and direction, searching for the real me.

Oh there are so many things happened in 2012. There are handful recollections of memories and good things to be remembered. To be yearned at cherished for a lifetime. Those new faces I got to know, shining my life to its ultimate bright. Oh Allah, I shouldn't asked for more. There are few who walked into my life for purpose. Be it to hurt or to care, they are all the same. To teach me some important value in my life, which seriously I'm going to treasure it for the rest of my life. Thank you people.

For this 2013, I will hope for less and work for more. I want to be a good wife, a good mom, a good daughter, a good teacher and of course a good servant of Allah. InsyaALLAH. Allah, please guide me. Don't let me go astray. Keep me safe and sane. ><,

Happy new year to all.  Be a good person, and Allah will be good to you in return.

Now I am ready. Okay 2013. Bring it on!

Dec 29, 2012


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29th December 2012. 

I have been celebrating it for 12 years already. ><, 12 years and counting.

For him.
Since he loathe cake, I made him this instead

Happy birthday my wonderful man. I wanna grow old with you.

And I love you, so much!


Dec 22, 2012

There Will Always Be Someone Like That

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There will always be someone who magically catches your attention. Someone who would make you think about them all the time if it’s not everytime. Someone who tragically causes your heart to flip and bend and then get all straight again everytime you see his/her face. Someone who will make you want to care about, be there everytime she/he wants you to. There will always be someone like that. 

 I saw him for the first time and I grew all fond towards him. Regardless of my warmth approaches and extra tenderness, he was being all cynical and bitter towards me. He kind of served me with endless rejection and seclusion. He was never tried to make any effort to reconcile so I just watched him from a distance, knowing that he is doing all fine and collected. 

He put a barrier within our line. He keeps his kindness away so it will never be touched by anyone without his approval. And he will never tire of acting that way. He kind of enjoying it as time passes. Happy to see people come and go with massive demolition of hope and emotion. And again, he will be a all alone, living in a world only he can rule. 

It’s okay for him to hurt me. It feels good. It’s true. It feels good to know how it feels like to be hurt by someone whom you cared too much. 

As if you are bleeding, and no one is there, to mend it. 

Oh this is not love. This is beyond that.